A Tried Girl's Harangue (Part 3)

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Day III
[Her words are directed at you today - yes, you. She thinks she's over him but is getting philosophical. Answer her if you can.]

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I want a god. A real life god, very human yet god-ly.
I want a king, one brave beyond mere men
Who won’t be prone to the excesses of mundaneness
Who wears his scars like a trophy or crown.
I want a god. Some think my head is in the clouds
To claim my one is a god even before he is man.

I’m a queen;
Believe it or not I am a queen
Deserving of the best in this
Reserved, at rest, in peace.
I’m a rose;
A black rose you claim but a rose
With your heart my fragrance you see
Beauty, civil, serene.
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In love with the idea of being in love

You say you love me but I’m not sure. I thought I loved you, maybe not. But what does it mean to be in love? What does it really mean to be in love with someone? Is it synonymous to loving that one? If I am in love with the thought or idea of loving someone, if I crave it so much that it is true to me, are my feelings pseudo or phantom? I really do want to love this one, to be in love with this one and I already feel something for this one; are my feelings really for the someone, are they real? If I fall in love with someone based on a series of events or traits I witnessed, is it possible to always be in love with that person because of those reasons or is more required to stay in love? Is it possible to fall out of love with that person based on other series of events that emerge?
Feelings can be ignored, feelings can be stifled or repressed, feelings can be transformed, feelings can be channeled but do feelings ever die? What do we do about this feeling called love that spreads its stinging arrows afar and leaves broken hearts in its wake? Is it real, is it true, is it worth the pain?
Methinks the problem with this “idea” of being in love with someone is that it doesn’t allow one to see things as they really are. We project our feelings on the idea not necessarily on the reality standing in front of us. This is one girl’s perspective, what is yours?

Thank you for reading
#GirlRant (c) 'durotimi
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