Open heart

Oh yeah? 

Every time I reach out to others for want of emotional reassurance or affection, I do it afraid. I am scared for many reasons, top of which is rejection. Lack of trust, apprehension, apathy and some others make up the rest of the list. I am in need of affection but my fears hold me back, preventing me from giving and receiving it. And for this reason I do not take my friends for granted - because they can love me. Perhaps you can relate.

Letting yourself be loved is an act of terrifying vulnerability and surrender which many of us can't stand. Letting yourself be loved gives you over to someone’s mercy and leaves you trusting that they will keep loving you even though you may not have enough trust in their ability or may be unlovable at times. Letting yourself be loved leaves you hoping that they will love you rightly; the way you want to be loved and that they won’t break your given heart (as Ann Voskamp calls it). Letting yourself be loved breaks all the boundaries and barriers you set for your heart and scares the shit out of you so you do it afraid, or not at all.
Receiving love is a privilege and a great gift never to be taken for granted. If you can't step up to take it from others because of your inhibitions, you'll shortchange yourself. Learn to love others, learn to love yourself but much more than that, learn to let yourself be loved. Open up your heart.

Written by 'durotimi
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